Wednesday, September 29, 2010

pulkit, prek, trish, ishi , b@kra.... :( :( :(

I am in desperate need of someone to hold me.

I want my best friends around me now, without asking me questions. I need someone by my side to tell me it's going to be alright.
I hate giving explanations….. I need someone who reads my eyes and understands with out the need of any communication. I dont want to attend any phone calls or reply to any msgs. I really can make out which msg full of 'take care's is genuine and which one is not. I can make out which 'hug' is real and which one has been given only to stay in my good books. Why do you guys bother yourself so much?

I need someone to have faith in me, to tell me Taniya, I know you are the best girl in this world.
I desperately need somebody's trust in me…..someone's high expectations from me.
I need someone to tell me it is not too late you can still go back to where you where…. you can still be the girl people used to look upto. You can still get back to your old ways and means. I miss my school yaar…. I miss my teachers. I miss Zutshi mam who used to scold me when I used to score 98 on 100 in history…. I want that level of faith back. I miss pulkit, trish, prek, ishi, b@kra. I want you people around me yaar…… I want to feel alive again! Damn I miss prek n trishu so fucking much. I miss our bitching.. I miss pullu n b@kra’s non stop pulling my leg so muchso much!

The biggest regret I have right now is turning too extrovert with people. Wrong Wrong Wrong. Damn. Its all wrong. My conscious kept pinching me each time..why did I ignore all that!
I should have never opened up so much….... dnt u c.even i get hurt.......

I miss the old me. I felt good to be the innocent one..the decent one..the nerdy one…the crazy one….the sincere one..the focussed one. :(

Dont ping me on gmail/facebook/phone to ask me whats wrong. Jo hai upar likh diya aur kuch nahi bolne ko.
Now feeling lite.thnx blog……………

Being 21.......Happy birthday to me..


hiii...m 21 ...
dedicating one day on my place for me.....
10 things i know today:

1. I love love love that the sun has been out since the last two days...n i m basking in it again....
2. I still think that , xyz guy is damn cute.....(cn't name the person here.lol)
3. I m self obsessed and just love taking my pictures....
4. Initially i ws sad for leaving my hometown and coming here but with the warmth that i m adorning here...I feel i am blessed...with exam the next dy too they made me feel so spcl about my spcl day.
5. just got a mail.exams postponed..yuppppiiieeeeeeeeeee...............babaji tussi grtt ho...hun main aish karangi...blog u r so lucky...
6.Money wooshes in and out of my wallet too quickly
7. I like my hair long but when its hot i wish they were short.
8. choc. is still one of my fav. things to eat.
9. being 21 is super cool.i feel sexier all the more.lol
10. And got this lovely dedication of this poem for my birthday in the middle of
night.... kudos to u dear... love ya for the poem... one of the best wishes i got yesterday. :)
here it goes..
"Happy Birthday, Special Treasure

God gave a gift to the world when you were born—
a person who loves, who cares,
who sees a person’s need and fills it,
who encourages and lifts people up,
who spends energy on others
rather than herself,
someone who touches each life she enters,
and makes a difference in the world,
because ripples of kindness flow outward
as each person you have touched, touches others.
Your birthday deserves to be a national holiday,
because you are a special treasure
for all that you’ve done.
May the love you have shown to others
return to you, multiplied.
I wish you the happiest of birthdays,
and many, many more,
so that others have time to appreciate you
as much as I do."

p.s- i have this super cool feeling... flaunting my new Puma bag that ws a total surprise... thnx a lot for the gyft frnds. love ya too......n ya. m lvng the feeling of adorning the crown of "21"..... tht sounds so so so very cool...........

Monday, September 6, 2010

Singing my tunes.....from Dawn to Dusk!!!



I want to Set my own tunes and sway to my own melodies....

I want to dance my OWN dance;
Dance the whole night through…..
Until dawn!!
Watch the sun…saying….. “present taniya(rowdy)”….
Announcing the beginning of a new day….

Rejoicing in the mystery of it...
I want to grab a hold of life,
Make a handle to it…
As if it were a tree
In full bloom;

Shake it a bit,
Letting the blossoms
Fall upon my head;
Feeling their silkiness
Caress my face.

Feel the earth beneath, My bare feet…..
swoosh in and out like the free form waves
The undulating mountains of ups and downs that life
Presents;
the adventures, the
Sorrows, the joys…….
ALL OF IT
I want to embrace it all.
I want to live my life with no regrets
Leaving no stone unturned.
Yes, I want to sing my own tunes,
With a heart full of joy

Experience the woods ablaze with
The mosaic of the reds and the golds of Autumn,
And the breath-taking serenity of the dusky sun......Slipping below the horizon.
I want to bask in the afterglow
Until the last sigh….!!!!!!


p.s- clicked the above picture of mine.....purposely for bright dawn and shady dusk.......let me know hows it?