All i need is --My Lone star... *

ohhki, the beast is out again, with its imagination goin loose...so here i go......




With my ear plugs in my ears, I was standing at my terrace on a winter night.
As the wind blew, I felt cold.
But I still stood thr.... bare feet,
Feeling the chill strike me hard…
It was so strong, I could almost feel it deep in my heart.

It was all dark ...
The moon was half hidden behind a cloud. peeping at me and asking obvious questions-y r u out grl wen the wrld's sleeping???

but I was busy staring at the single star out in the sky.
While all the others were hidden,
Not showing their light.

This little thing was brave, It was out in the cold….... Maybe it was scared, but it was still out-" Showing some hope".
I tapped my fingers as the music played, I did hug my knees and cuddled up in the corner. I heard the clock struck two, But my heart expresed no notion of going inside
"In the warm".

I sat in the corner,
And gaped at that star.

My body was numb
But my heart,,,,,, Wanted to be a companion to that brave thing, that was out there in the freezing cold .

I wanted to be with that star,
Because I knew what it was like
When you have to stand alone…
When everybody leaves you and goes into the warm..........


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sometimes....all u c is tht "lone star".the star of hope...
wen u r thru a dark tunnel...all u need is not any torch bt just that feeble- flickering and faint star of urs, and that star is the person tht stands by u wen u need someone to hold on to u the most.wen everyone else has gone in the cozy habitats.


p.s-wrote this winter nite imagination on a hot summer nite but my lone star is not bounded by seasons.
it just stands alone.wen evryone else goes in to thr cozy habitats, n it still stands thr undithred,.... to gv hope.
dedicated to all the people who hav - no matter what , hav always stood by me..thru my thick n thins....blessd to hv u....
love yaa....
wud post soon.n yes had an amazing day out ..loads f thngs came up ovr a brunch of sandwitch....wish i cud hav freezd the moment........
t.c stay in good health.

THE MOST WONDERFUL THING ABT LIFE IS ITS TERMINATION

Suicidal title isn’t it? What do you feel about it? Most certainly this statement is a manifestation of the thousand losses of a ‘born-loser’…

Before I get going in my business of expressing views on yet another weird post of mine, I would certainly want you to ponder over on what life means to you! That is the only way we all can connect to something which might seem ‘not worth discussing’……
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a few days ago, i ws googling certain thoughts n quotes on 'life'(i possess this strange habit f googling strange thngs. . Lol) n thr i came across this statement. . . . N trust me this statement did put me in a fix!.

the moment i read this line, thoughts started squarming my mind shell on as to what life is, how important is it to live and face the challenges (which they said is the most wonderful thing!). After all wat i had always believed is that the beauty of life lies in the ''life'' attached to a lively life ., , I thought that the line about the beauty f termination of life is a pessimistic one and only a loser will utter such a statement!

Thinking this i ws abt to shut down my computer n while clicking on the button ''shut down'' , , i stopped for a while, , , (what if the thngs tht r running, never shut down?, wat if a running task never winds up? Being a person f programming field i realise the ‘END PROGRAM’ command of any computer program and it’s significance.

All this while I now knew that I will be the only one who will like a ‘loser’ support this statement!

To redirect myself on the statement i thoight about the time-frame of life.

Well the flowers (flora-lovers take note!) many of them live for a day. They blossom and die. Just like that! The best thing about them is definitely the fact that they die in their prime without letting anyone know how it looks a few moments before it’s death!

What about the projects? Isn’t the ending of any project the most wonderful thing? That yaa, , ,finally the burden's over n its completed (i guess the engginers wud agree)

So isn’t death which redefines the fact that we are after all "humans"! We all know death is inevitable so why don’t we stand up and say that it is what makes us complete! If you are a believer in life after death you’ll be so happy to be relieved of all this worldly sins and who knows Peter might call your name!

And don’t we all believe that ‘we live in deeds and not in years'

And how about our beloved Micheal Jackson ? The moment the man (?) dies Wikipedia crashes, the media goes in a tizzy and why? Definitely not to tell us about his child abuse history but how great he was! Trust me if MJ is reading this he would be winking and agreeing that there couldn’t be a wonderful thing as death simply because he is reverD more nw after his death .. .

the most relevant example I could give was of this nuisance called ‘love’ which happens (‘keeps happening’ for some but not me!). So isn’t ending this the most wonderful thing you can do when you know you can’t sustain it, when you know probably he/she is much better off without you? If you believe that this is actually love and it’s not working, without a shadow of doubt termination will be ‘the most wonderful thing’ (Yah, You might be called names like ‘martyr’! But back yourself!)

;) ;) pun intended.

(I ALSO THOUGHT OF LINKING THIS ONE WITH THE BIRD "PHOENIX"-A BIRD WHICH LIVES FOR ABOUT 500 YEARS BEFORE DYING AND RISING AGAIN FROM ITS ASHES........ THOUGH FICTIOUS BUT TRUELY DEFINES THE BEAUTY OF A martyr

so cn i now say tht yaa somewhere down my ficke mind ;) i do believe in the beauty of termination of lyf. .. . .

Coz tht makes me n u complete.



p.s- unlike the usual ones this post came down quite haevy on my head too.had to ponder a lot... whole lot of an inside out, topsy turvy came out........ wud look forward to inputs frm u all.........
kep smiling, love u all.....

n ya.....i made that sketch,do tell me hows it.....

Imperfect me...........!!!!

Imperfections.............
Flaws...................................

Throwing my idle self on the couch today was trying to figure out these highly negative words....and I didn't have to ponder for long, just looked up and saw myself, my own reflection in the mirror, and Yaaaaaaaa.....that, was my answer..
"The Imperfect Mee!!!! "
But does that mean that I don't adore me????

I am not a perfect girl,
my hair doesn't always stay in place.
I don't have that mirror cracking personna and at times carry myself in an annoyingly clumsy way.
I spil things a lot,
I act dumb at times and sometimes do have a broken heart...
My friends and i sometimes fight,
and may be somedays nothing goes right....
I act stubborn and stand strong,
but there are times when i need someone to just - hold me on!!!!

But when I think about it and take a step back I realize how amazing life is and may be just may be i like being imperfect.
This highly -ve word is so much so +ve and full of life for me, with all the imperfections.
I am my dad's 'joker' and my mum calls me 'nanni' , and all my idiotic behaviour gets me a peck on my cheek from my sister after she's tired of grumbling at me,,, Oh!!! i so love u sis...
My loved one calls me 'dumbo' and 'bhullakad' and much more crazy stuff.....but then there are times when i am "the brave girl".. :)
What i now know is that I don't wanna be perfect as that is what makes me - ME!!!!
And my friends love me,, my family adores me and that is what matters and my life is tooooooooo beautiful being - THE IMPERFECT ME !!!!..
AND yaaaaaaaa............... THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME ME!!!!!.......



p.s- dedicated to all the lovely adorable people around me....tht have jeweled the simple Imperfect garland of my life,n made it precious for me.........
love you all..mmmuaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!

t.c........stay in good health, would post soon.........n yaa.its raining again.n m loving it... :) :)

-regards

Drenchd in the first shower of the season . . . . .. .

Hiering the copywrites frm 'mc donald's to say . . .''m loving it'' ... . . ;) ;)
Lol
Finally some solace to quench the thirst of the weary soul n soaring temperatures. .. . . . First shower of the season ws like a much awaited guest tht came in without a knock or a shudder. . . .bt with all pleasant surprises. . ..standing on my roof top, gettng all drenched, with the rain drops embracng me n the whisltle of the breeze . . .swaying in harmony with my hair curls. . .. .loved it all . ..
Felt as if the monsoon is playing seduction games with me.. . .n the tree branches nodding in affirmation n swaying n swinging along to sing tht perfect song of nature. . .
Nature-which no doubt is the purest form f beauty .. . So siren .. . .
Standing with arms open to embrace the gesture returnd to me, i felt as if t ws meant only for me.. , making my heart skip a beat, ....swayng to the whirls of the wind. . . .i m still enjoyng it .. . With a feeling.. . ''ye dil maange more'' . . . .
Awsum is the mawsum.. . . !!

Mile long SMILES :)

I dont thnk it would be wrong to coin : "Go for someone who makes u smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile."
a simple quote that i might have gone through a zillion tyms thru my span... bt realised it today wen someone asked me "hey, can u tell me a word that is a mile long?"
as idiotic i can be, i cudn't come up with the word coz my problem is tht i use logic wen i no i dnt have...
jokes apart.bang came the simple reply............. "SMILES" : two "s" separated by a MILE!!!!
he finished his joke, but left me thinking...food for thought.

indeed the word is a mile long, it embodies so much within. a subtle simple curve can actually go about expressing a whirl of emotions, the twinkle tht glitches ur eyes wen u smile is the perfect soulmate to the lovely smile(cudn't help personifyng).
busy in the hustle bustle of lyf, n it just struck u abt the person u adore.. the spcl someone, n all u get is tht unexplained smile, buffering the ocean of emotions u struggle through,n tht gives u a kick.
u get home tired with work n ur eye meets ur dad's n u c tht simple curve persistent on his lips....sayng all the care he has for u..sayng so much so..tht he's so proud of u.
ur mind is not at peace n u dnt evn no the reason y, sometymes just some odd unnecessary somethings disturb u...n thr cms in ur mothr with tht 'smile' gathring all the care n affection tht the elements of existence can hold. a smile to caress n sooth ur soul.
the unbound thrill to c ur newbie tot, making his first moove n the smile evolves into a chuckle...
u r hurt...n wen the othr one asks u the reason.u just smile.....u did show u r hurt , bt still u care for him more n will somehow manage.........
being with frends.having the tym of ur lyf...whr people lyk mee too come into account...the smile evolves in a smirk....
in the dark woods.....wen its so much lonely n ur mind is engulfed in an array of doubts n fear.fear to loose, fear of failure, fear of evn the unjudged frights,.....its wen if u c some hope....u realise u r not alone n its thn tht ur face witnesses this strange curve pertaining ur lips again.this tym a smile of vision..wen u have hoped of hope.........
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sitting in ur own thoughts...just the way i m rite nw.......reclined, at peace, with a turmoil of emotions tht u enjoy....fiddling with ur own inner self, ur ways n methods...n the smiles tht u hv managed to bring forth....evn tht brought a smile!!!-unexplained, unbounded, so very simple...so vry siren........
just smile the "mile long smile".....n trust me its lovely to analyse, wat all emotions it brings along....i m loving it.....
evn the beautiful moon in the sky...tucks upon us frm above,,, 5 times a fortnite with the perfect curve...n i call it "MY MILE!!!"

p.s- dedicated to tht someone who made me realise wat the word embodies.!!!! smiling ur mile long smile :)

i am sooo happy!!!!!!

well........ i just have no reasons today, no good thoughts even. just a blank unperturbed mind, tht is just so calm today like never before. have no reasons, not at all....n nthng spcl did i vent thru today. nothing,,, a vry boring clumsy sunday i had , bt at the end of the day wen i m sittng now, reclined in my own thoughts, its so much peaceful..so vry soothng....dnt feel lyk doing anythng, just smiling the sense of an unknown joy.
m loving it..!!! ting ting tiding!!! lol

heavy hearted..........

For the brutal words are living and active..........sharper than any double edged sword..........

WOMENS DAY!!!!!

"WOMEN IS THE MIRACLE OF DIVINE CONTRADICTIONS"

well.well i have a disclaimer here: being a part of the fairer sex myself, my views should not be taken as my baisness towards the "special race"................lolzzzzz

Happy Women's Day- the day........leaving apart all the ''politically correct'' definitions,, what i celebrate is "ME"....the wonderful gift of femininity that i have, the gift to adore the skin that i m in. To cherish a life that is blessed with the tenderness of a feather and augmented by the strength of a hard shell.

Realms of paper an reels of films have been dedicated to describe a woman. Women oriented books promise to reveal "the secret" underlying womanhood. Biologists have spend their lifetime decoding the history of woman. But the women continues to be an enigma. Her enigma embodies her beauty. And this beauty is definately not just skin deep. And i am elated to confess my pride that i have to be a "WOMAN"..........blessed to be in the skin and salute to womanhood........